A Fresh Start

Ok... I am not feeling better, but with not going to the gym I figured I must take something seriously. You have it right today I actually started using the cron-o-meter again. It is noon and I am at 604 calories. Good Nutricious calories for the day. If I can get through 3 days of this I think I can make it a habit... (of course starting on Easter weekend may not have been the smartest). I am going to do this!!!!

Not even a week has gone by...

...and we have neglected the mission!!! AHHHHH!!! We must do better!! We must get back on track!

Sticking with it.

Heading back to the gym yesterday was a huge help. It motivates me to get moving and to eat healthier. I stuck to may calories yesterday and the majority of those calories were healthy. I drank all of my water and then some and only had 1 diet coke. :D I think I can do this. YAH!

Down 2.5 pounds. 53 to go!

The Fat and The Skinny

Well here is some encouraging news... Even though I have not lost a pound, not an ounce... not a single movement on the scale...
I have lost 3 inches on my breasts.
I have lost 2 inches on my waist
I have lost 1 inch on my hips
I have lost 1 inch on my thighs
I have lost well.... no inches on my arms... but they are probably by far the worst.
So I am encouraged to at least continue to try!

OK Rocky Start

So apparently neither of us was prepared truely mentally prepared to start this week.
Although I probably made my calories yesterday and today...NONE of them where healthy!!!!
I am thinking I need to write down an exact meal plan for the next 2 weeks including snacks. The hard parts... not picking at the girls food. Convincing my boys that Salad will be the largest portion of our dinner with a small side of meat (they can have the carbs)
So 70 is the goal... I am 00 towards that goal. I have not measured my inches in a few weeks... let you know tomorrow how that goes. I think we need a reward system, think about it.

My typical day...

I started out well today...eating in moderation. Cheerios and skim milk, 1/2 a banana...lunch was beans and salsa with veggies and a little bit of reduced fat cheese and some blackberries. But, as usual, somewhere mid afternoon it all went downhill and somewhere between the thin mint cookies and pasta I lost complete control and went way way way overboard. I quit counting just under 2,000 calories...but I know I'm way over. Here it is the sickening truth. I'm laying it out there. Tomorrow will be better.

55.5 to go.

Why I need to lose the weight...

Well lets just say... fat is not the new black. 2 babies in 2 years = 1 Mom who is not at all who she wants to be. I want to be that "skinny bitch" I want to look sexy and confident in a pair of jeans. I want to not be absolutely freaked out when someone, including myself sees me naked in the bathroom light. I want to use a perfectly good closet full of clothes. I want the confidence in my body, in myself to take complete sexual advantage of my husband! Mostly, I just want to feel like me again. The less I feel like me the more I eat... the more I eat the less I feel like me... see the problem. This is the beginning of me.

Why I need to lose the weight...

It isn't profound. It's quite simple. I'll feel better...inside and out. I want my confidence back. My weight is a weight that keeps me from sailing to my true potential. It holds me back, pulls me under, forces me down. I want to be free of that and happy with me again. I used to know that feeling...of freedom. I used to have those days when nothing could get me down. Even when I have those days now - those good days - the heaviness of my body keeps me from being able to feel fully elated. I want to feel confident again in knowing that I do have control over this and the decisions I make about food and exercise but food especially. I want to have the will to have the power to not eat mindlessly or emotionally.